Journey of Life

And another guy decides that we shouldn’t date………

really………..

Something would come up and he would decide that we shouldn’t go out anymore…

And everything that goes along with that….its been a crappy hour

And the “cherry” on top…I told my roommate, my supposedly “good friend” for the past 4 years…and all he had to say was: “Sucks.”

It blows up in my face….

I’m sorry I think you’re awesome

This is a rant…so move along if you don’t care.

Pretty sure things are over with San Diego guy (the older guy I’ve been talking to). Part of me still holds out a little hope that he will call/text…I’m hoping I’ll get over that soon. I went and hung out with Marc (guy I dated a few months ago, things got physical too much), we took a walk and just talked. This is what we should have done when we started seeing each other…Not that I’m saying this is the start of anything again, but it was nice to just be able to hang out with him. I did keep my current problems with trying to date San Diego, so I’m being a little stupid, but I want to make sure that he knows that this is just a friendship, and that I know and that I know that he knows. 

And on top of that I got a call from work saying that there is a problem with my employment…I’m really worried that I’ll be out of a job tomorrow. There’s a complicated situation, I just thought it was clear, but it might not be….I’m hoping for the best. Trying not to worry about it too much cause then I won’t be able to sleep…

Just when I start to think that things are looking up…everything goes wrong.

By not going out with this guy, I’ve been able to visit my parents and work for them, which made me money that I desperately needed…Going out would have been the stupid choice, but I had the hope that meeting a real guy and someone that seemed as interested in me as I was in him, and someone with the potential to be as sweet as he was sexual, I thought that maybe it’d make me happy…not that money will make me happy…..

Maybe money does make people happy…maybe I need to cut back on the romantic ideas

Too bad the person lives on the other side of the courtry