Journey of Life

Boyfriend has made comments that he would like me to move in with him….I mean, I’m basically living with him right now, but I think its too early to actually move all my stuff in. I can’t even tell him “I love you” yet cause I can’t actually “love” him cause I don’t feel able to do much for him yet…….I think it kinda unnerves him, but I think he’s managing it well.

He’s still talking to me

I kinda want this to work……..

But he invited me to the party, I went, had a great time. A little bit of drama, but we’re handling it together.

P.S. He used the boyfriend label to refer to me…..I didn’t not like it :)

Tim and I had made plans to spend July 4th together, but after the drama from last week he wanted to take things easy…I was hoping he’d message me and re-invite me…but he hasn’t…hasn’t messaged me at all today :(

Guess I’m staying single

yay :(

(insert GIF of Felicia Day saying “Yay” from The Guild)

That couple……man that was a mistake

I know I’m good with one guy (Miguel), or at least that’s what he tells me. Apparently the other guy (Orlando) thought that I was going to be THEIR cub or something….god, at most it was friends with benefits, nothing more. I don’t know why he got the idea that it was more…I spent a lot of time with them but come on…….

Now my guy (Tim) is having second thoughts about things. Orlando went blabbing about the drama to all the friends, obviously spreading a lot of mistruths, and now everyone hates me…and they’re hating Tim for dating me.

I don’t deserve these lies.

And Tim doesn’t deserve to have people hating him.

I’ve lost a lot of respect for Orlando (the little there was)…I see Orlando as a bully….with respect for him, if he actually liked me then he is hurting and he’s acting out because of it. But he never even gave me a chance (even a minute) to talk to him.

Went really well. He’s super nice and kind. He’s the first guy that I’ve met that’s willing to go out of his way to see me…makes me feel like I’m wanted.

I feel kinda bad right now cause I’m not sure if/how I can return anything to him. I was straight up with him about my situation and how I think he should find someone that can give back to him more than I could, but he still wanted me. I told myself that I wouldn’t continue to question why he was dating me, so I’m not. He made a choice to date me as I am and that makes me happy, I should respect that.

I am slightly worried about his age (and mine)…I’m just not quite sure how the problems that everyone says there are will manifest and how it will work out. 

I was really excited to actually date someone….but it wouldn’t have worked out….woulda been fun though.

And another guy decides that we shouldn’t date………

really………..